Disappointments

     When I say disappointments, its something  common in my  life. So far nothing in life has happened as I wished.

Only my dressing and choice of clothes which I choose, i have been given preference. Another reason when I choose to be my self and enjoy  loneliness that's only me and for that i have my freedom, that is after I'm married.

      Until I was married off, My life was controlled and decisions in my life, from dressing, attending weddings and any functions , all  were according to my siblings wish or choice until choosing life partner. The best part of it is, the person I'm married to had given me the freedom which I did not get from my siblings. Blinded by their love I was helpless to say no or to object any of their decisions.My life was a nomadic life , since 17 plus until I was 21. at  17, I had to follow my sister to concentrate in my studies, because at home, I was helpless. 

    When stayed with my sister and brother inlaw there was  nothing to worry, just need to  attend school tuition and study, on weekendsIi visited my mum and sister with my eldest sisters twin girls. The following year, me , my mum, my youngest sister and my twin nieces followed my brother to Ipoh. 

    My brother rented a new terrace house and we were the first one to moved in to the new house.I started my athletic training with one of the well known coach "a friend of my brother" after my form 5 exam.  He  trained the Asian runners like   Josephine Mary, Samson Vellaboy and few other runners . The training session was too tiring until I couldn't cope up with my  family chores, so I quit the training session.

     Moved back to my home town Sitiawan to further my education and back after the exam, by that time my 2nd  brother married to my sister inlaw. When sister inlaw joined our family  ,she looked after the family and I continued my study at my sisters place, while my younger sister stayed with brother and mum and studied in MGS IPOH.

       After a year brother  shifted to the office  Quarters and I started teaching. That year end my brother was transffered to East Coast, that is  to The state of  Pahang. started  back my " nomadic life" which was not Promised. We moved to my sisters house in  Sri Manjung, My brother was posted to one of the Chinese Primary School in Kg Baru. Now my  4th brother is the supporter of our family consist of my self, mum, younger sister and my twin nieces. My 3rd brother was in Ipoh, 5 th brother was in KL, we stayed  with my 4th brother  in my 2nd sisters house. Two years we were there, I requested to shift  to our house in Taman Raja Muda Musa in Sitiawan. We lived in our fathers house   from 1984 untill end  of 1988, I was engaged in that house in 1987, mum passed away in 1988,  In  1988 brother and sister inlaw moved to a double storey house which they bought  at Taman Megah. The Raja Muda House is a house which is full of memories, My engagement, my mums death, and my 1st brother in laws death.